dump from pencil notes etc 6-29-2010

by Janet Granofsky

4-13-2010 Oops I deleted Nov09 fil with Obama if there is anybody out there who doubts..." w. links.

I'm starting to forget shut. Maybe bcs of putting new stuff in mind for CompTIA course. I can't remember right when I'm at the f-ngh school.

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MS tld mal cllr on air to giv contact info to producrs and "We'll [Steiner + his ppl] try to get you a lawyer" was at YPR

the time Gov? O'M was supposed to be on with Jayne Miller, I tried call in, screener mal eithr put me onn hold? and neverlet on oOR said I couldnt go on air, I wantd aks Gov if anybdy in admin cld help me collect $40 K, had hrd on news abt som govs council? initiativs to help ppl collect out of state
I phond fr Fr Squ $5/da phon lef sev mes did I get anybdy live? chek log ===========================================================

CALLINS:

===Rodricks Midday topic Nadya Suleman, I sd haters want to see her collapse, right when story 1st broke,

===YPR Anthony McCarthy? topic Nadya Suleman, I sd sexism- if NS had a husband as main support ratehr than her mother (both parents?) ther wld not have been such an outrage, gest fem abt Jon + Kate? Plus 8, gest called it mother-blaming?

Steiner? gest ACLU fem susan?, I called in abt ment ill, I- How abt the OTHER ?ment? ?ill? ======================================================

Oct 2008

10-6 I think or 7 106? or arnd 1am I messed on kathy B----- abt Ed boss oil on duck, dog multi-name, then early or mid-afternoon I watched phone ring wth B----- Balt Co offic # on cllr ID, watchd ring 2x, thght myb sh'd leav mes, 3rd tim I real quik set up tape + answrd, B----- "Ja-anet??" I- yes?, B wy did y leav OR the nex tim y leav mes lik that......... "the nex tim y leav a mes lik that, the gov't is comin' after you"-- that was in mid or end of conversation. 10-13 I think the CBS fem called Faptmgr and told her to tell me not to call leave mes any more- had lef OG contactinfo in phon mes on Stahl

4-14-10 I am sick of hearing the F-word used day and night against children.

Yale's OHAM discovered 4-12 hrd NPR and 4-13 to website scott lindroth? Tania Leon Virgil Thompson even tho I am not familiar with their music [or am I?]I understand

4-16 The Past owes me $40K- $5M.

(4-18-10) remember [aunt's husband my former boyfriend]: "Like suppose ECC didn't do anything and y had killed yourself- [my aunt] cld sue them-" I: What wld she sue them for? It wld be better for her if I did kill mysekf bcs I been a drain on her" + Google sui lawsuits

Once in a while, about 1/2 hour after eveything has finally quieted down in bedroom, you'll hear a SMACK, and THEN a kid will burst into teras, and THEN you hear "Shut UP, go to SLEEP" etc.

4-29-10 It seems that every time I try to tell somebody about stuff to broaden their horizons,

like NPR, which I've been listening to since it started, e.g. onthemedia.org told CompTIA teacher about sev X, he seemed interested but h doesn't GO there, then some other as shoal (e.g. (other student mal) tells me I'm stuck in the past. This is kind o stuff has been going on - e.g. back in flagger days when I tld that would-be Gov Jerry Brown kidnapper about music HoS or somethiong, then her HUSBAND said I was immature or something, that I was self-pitying PPL ARE SIMPLY AS SHOALS

(eve) I want to vomit this place out of my soul.

5-2-2010 Sing "woman in the men's room" improvise [Was that date when I STARTED doing that?]

MOPPING HALLS: 6' wide, with insets to 10 1/4' wide in front of doors, I tell them [residents] in institutions they mop down one side + put caution placards up, then come back up mop other side, but they say "It takes too long that way" but when they do whole thing at once, then people walk on and they have to do over. "They" (bureaucrats) jst figure "we have homeless shelters + we want to shelter as many people as we can" which is worthy endeavor, but what they're doing is jst packing bodies into buildings,

and not providing really personalized services, and crowding causes problems which are not even recognized.
bicycle- N still has? cat- Who has?

5-3-10 Mothers say to kids: "Why'd you do that on my bed? Not enough notice for room-rearrange events. 5-5-10 WYPR MD Morning Garrison Keillor abt James Beard "He was gay, which he didn't publicly discuss, even in his memoirs."- get preceding line, I abt my daily logs 5-8-10 Can't buy no plane, Ain't got no car, Sure I got to walk I won't get very far, Goin' t KC, KC here I come, I think they let some crazy women there and I might get to be one.

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5-12-2010 MISERABLE: Can't find quiet comfortable place to read or nap; getting stopped up poop; bag lunch + arranging lunch when going oput if rain etc.; shelter "Job Readiness" Computer Room most of time

Note wrot to shelter mgr. 5-10 or 11 see Daily log- no photocpy- abt veggies, pain ER Jan- stopped up

BACKWARDS: Reporting abuse will get you labelled as busybody + snitch; This is emergency shelter so we can't stay in it; that couple and scabies scare- femal staff scolded ME 5-12

5-13-10 [specific incident can't publish]

Should hang sign on back [or front] "Homeless NPR listener need batteries.

THERE IS NO TV IN HERE [repeat sev X]

5-16-2010 breakfast sugar dispenser- only 1, sometimes 2, supposed to be left on serve window counter or coffee machine table but ppl take to their table + leave there + get all putupon if I or somebody takes back to front or asks where it is

See 5-16 daily log abt dormmate woman ceiling vent + sheets up + I stood up for her when mgr. said take sheets down, mgr.: "I don't care about the air vent."

Mikulski I am NOT the homeless woman mentioned in article (linked) but I left her a phone mes 2 days before she fell. THIS IS HOW THE LIBERALS really TREAT POOR PEOPLE OR MAYBE IT'S JUST ME: HEaDLINE FOR TRYD.

BAG LUNCH CARP

wOODWARD- Used to leave phon mes on Wash Post Investigative News, then # changed or something, op gave me Woodward #, I messed on him as kinda the channel to NPR + the f------ liberals 100s of mes tape-recorded now in dump-- hey 100s of mes on Bob Woodward doesn't anybody wanna investigate that? Dig 'em up? His intern prolly threw most away, he'll never talk to me.

(5-19) Long ago Stuart Taylor "It is not a crime to lie to the media (abt Clinton-Lewinsky)- I busted out laughing

belt bag zip serious problems start 5-20-2010 bght Walmart 2-13-04 $5.96, st use 12-19-04 to?, st use again 1-16-06 to 6-13-06 for winter, have written on piece of Purple Heart reminder postcard stuck in compartment.

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Th 5-20-2010 Folded B ppr w front cover INSIDE fold, penned "LOST - KEEP" (abt series finale supposed to be Sunday.

5-22-2010 Last night staff female prayed "Send them all rich husbands" 2nd time, that slip abt Janet + "her father" - MAKE CLEAR I AM NOT A BORN-AGAIN CHRISTIAN.

[What a lil reeding can do! Sometimes a lil reeding can do more than Googling, 5-22 eve red som Evolution for Dummies, then I'm thinking How did my attempted COMMUNICATIONS affect Breg + WJS? Now I gave WJS permission to audio record our phone conversations, Did he record on his end? Wow I'd like to have a copy again!

Su 5-23-2010 950am NPR Weekend Edition Keith Jarrett or Charlie Hayden "an improvising musician has to make so many sacrificesin their lives" + more- GET

Lost finale gonna miss when will I ever get DVD player + the 6 hours on DVD?

5-23-2010 singing in BRm "Since I fell for you" Y made me leave my happy home, you took my stereo + guitar and bird tapes and field guides... and now you're gone, But I'll get back at you.. I don't necessarily have to get back at you, but I just wanna get back."

Sun 5-23 OnnaMedyuk Facebook +privacy controls F. wants be your personal handler- link to- My website story important bcs the facing liberals are going to try to get me to take their names out of my site, there's gonna be a big debate abt whether I can list them as "friends"-- but I'm not -haha get som clever isht- trend used to be ?fictitious? name + real? friends, now realname + real friends

If I have batteries and working earphones I can sit on Patio amid noisy people but I listning earphons so they don't stress me out too much; if I listen to NPR is good in noise, but music needs quiet spot to enjoy. (5-24-10) DO: Jobs I would like, Projects I would Like to do, incl design homeless shelter work with architects, I know what shelters need 5-25 clld woman Bal Co Dept Aging- Senr Employment Program (P----- M------) I'm not getting Soc Serv Dundalk job- tld now shelter receptionaist, tld her abt my hist w Senr Emp Program-- applied + interview w PM 2X, receptionist tells me abt HER experience- L: "LISTEN to me, Janet, you're not listening", then I listen abt HER experience (which got her to receptionist job-- same community org Work force-- I TELL THEM ABT MY EXPERIENCES + THEY TELL ME _I'M_ NOT LISTENING + THEN I LISTEN TO THEIRS + THEN I SAY I DID THE SAME THING IN SAME PROGRAM, SO THEY SAY WELL KEEP TRYING see thisbk notes.

- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - (5-30-2010) Selectivity-- already in efile composition- K therapist SGHC records hassle In 1993 they called my env sci related career wishes crazy- in 2010 they say why you taking computer course if it's not your PASSION? (Cassistancen Otherside, and teacher)

6-1-2010 Wy do I batch about so much proprietary info to study for CompTIA, when I am so keen on birding?

6-2 Shelter "Job Readiness" facilitator disparages residents using Facebook, I abt NPR and ACLU on there

6-26?
Only persons abl sneak large amt TP out of shelter= staff (at night). Are they suspect ME personally of stealing paper supplies? [Female staff] sd "political...because we use too much Why should we be treated different than people who visit + work in county /state office buildings?

6-27 JOHN WATERS WILL SAVE ME!

M 6-28

1205am ben thinkin an hour I'm a WRITER g-------t I need to write my g----m book + I need an editor to help me organize, altho I can organize myself, but

it's what I NEED a f--g BOOK DEAL This place is not shelter, it's psych battery, + it's a BAFFLE [zigzag baffle line] you get ricocheted between the triple[double?]folds of those determinations you get from Social Services.
Callins: The Steiner? or Rehm? Ayn Rand thing: I made 3 points: that ther IS a lot of web discussion by feminists on AR; that according to AR capitalists can do no wrong; + the thing abt black people did not build this country which afterward I realized where it came from My story INVERSE of thos 2 femal journalists lucy Ling? (goes on Oprah) + other that Bill Clinton negotiated freedom
I sui agn unless get: confidence of adequate supply TP

6-29 I'm not being harrassed by police currently and I have a pretty stable standing as a shelter resident

6-29

What I am tiredest of all is writing everything down, with mechanical pencil because the leads are much cheaper than pens altho I have a bunch of pens given to me by staff etc. but with pencil I can erase but I have worn up all my replaceable mech. pencil erasers and can't afford to buy more which Walmart doesn't carry any more anyway.

10F3 1010a F------ dean is prolly reeding this her as self rightnow that's why I hate to hafta use my logon.

Since I have no cash (well lemme count 81 cents + 6 bus tokens + an old penny + a brand new 2010 penny which I dint believe when I found, I pick up pennies off the bathroom floor which is convenient for washing them) I have to go somewhere I have a lot built up on my Food Stamp card but the nearest places I can use that are a little over a mile from the shelter

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6-14, 29-2010

I, J--G-- intend to seriously consider doing it again unless I get the following:

AAA batteries, in multiples of 2, for my jWIN radio http://jwin.com/product_detail.asp?idx=2392&keyword=MINI%20AM/FM%20POCKET%20RADIO%20&%20ALARM%20CLOCK%20WITH%20BUILT-IN%20HI-FI%20SPEAKE (I was gonna kill myself again when I ran out before, but the Comp-TIA teacher gave me a cpl bux for some======)
the hell out of this impossible ==== shelter and into a living environment which is --compatible--- of my psychological health, creative endeavors ====
such as small apartment or large room, rent- and utility-subsidized as needed,
in temperate climatic zone, in reasonably safe but not gated neighborhood, with neighbors of varying culture and ethnicity including arboreal (not to exceed approximately 65% any one ethnicity except arboreal) within walking distance of public transportation, a large supermarket and public library, (or within affordable bus/cab reach of such)
entrance under my control,
must have at least one large window with a pleasant view, preferably over treetops, heat/ AC, private bathroom,
with small food storage space; and fridge/cooking appliances OR full kitchen use, and with (at least) bed, adequate desk and desk chair, comfortable (to me) armchair for reading, appropriate lighting,
digital TV (cable service not necessary); AM/FM radio receiver and speaker system; computer with which to multi-task using the Web, composing a book, and/or creating art and music (electronics pre-installations not necessary if I have means to purchase them myself)

JOB part-time e.g. historical research, public or ===school=== library, work/study would be great,

educational development (NOT attending CCBC) Please note that I can go anywhere in the country since I have only a tote full of ======== papers + === junk

If I can't get out of the shelter:

my own phone (See Safelink hassle; I'll try AssuranceWireless.com) AND
notebook computer or device with which to multi-task surfing the Web, composing a book, and/or creating art and music
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6-18-2010

The place I go to work on computer has a monument which is? looks like a dead tree in 3 sections (like an insect) trying to pull its head out of the ground.

That film CassistanceN woman showed in Work force workshop speaker woman sd decide to use a paper OR electronic organizer, not both-- I HAVE TO use both.

6-29-10

I jst can't filing STAND Comp-TIA, it's too filing unorganic + proprietary